— Deuteronomy 4:9 (via samuelchanyf)
— From the movie Annie
I’ve never been good at saying goodbyes;
I guess no one really is.
It’s funny how I started out in Adelaide with full of resentment. It came to a point where I felt that the sole purpose of God leading me here was to go through rehab (it was, in a way). I did not have a say in anything. The predetermined path was set out for me - like moving a pawn in a game of chess. Except that I am no mere chess-piece. It was all in His good, pleasing & perfect will. By His saving grace, I have been given a second chance in life.
The 4 years here have been nothing short of amazing. I cannot begin to describe the myriad of emotions I get when I think about this place, and all the wonderful people I’ve come to know and love. Granted, it was not an easy road to take. There were countless times where I struggled to find myself but I have been carried through. I am particularly grateful to be surrounded by such quirky yet resilient housemates who stood by me during those hazy moments. And now, this chapter in my life is coming to an end. As much as I don’t want to, I have to grow up and move on. But I realise there’re just too many things that I’ll miss about Australia.
So really, this is not a mushy-sappy-i’m-gonna-die-thingamajig to read and cry over.
It is a keepsake of my journey in Adelaide. This will be some sort of time capsule for me to look back one day when I’m old and grey. You know, like how you watch little girls in movies stuffing letters, photos, tiny souvenirs and whatnots into a worn-out shoe box, then burying it in their backyards and retrieving those fragments of the past some thirty years later. Pretty neat, huh?
Except that I don’t really have a backyard. Heh.
With every photo, every conversation, every song, quote, bible verse, anything at all that remind me of my days in this place, they will be left here and hopefully, it will ease the process of letting go. This is how I’d like to say goodbye.
This is me leaving Neverland.
— Hayley N. Williams
— “The Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho